Feeling jobless

This is the 2nd day after the end of my college life. Am in search of a job. It is such a situation to face the questions of neighbours and relatives. Really feeling jobless after 19 years of study :(

Today was the last day in my college life. Was so excited to see all my friends together in a great mood of enjoyment. I was really proud to say that I enjoyed my four years of college life with lots and lots of experiences in my life.  Especially the final year presented me with a mixed kind of feelings.

Though all the ones in my class was very friendly for me I could tell only two of them stole my heart. And today I couldn't enjoy as I thought. This was the most sorrowful day as I have to leave ma besties for a while. Feeling so sad and lonely today . :(

And now I start

I started writing this blog today only . I am writing this one as i feel that it is the right time to share my feelings and thoughts with you. I am currently an engineering student in a state in India.

This is the phase of last examinations of my bachelor degree. And this is my most confusing stage of life.

During my school days I had no idea of taking an engineering degree. Though most of my friends were keenly intersested owards eing engineers of different kinds , doctors with different specialization, etc. Etc. I was not at all interested in such professions. I cant point out why it was like that.

I always dreamt of being famous in my early days, thought of being different from others. I was having a dream job in my mind those days but it was discoraged by everyone my parents, by friends.. even though some of my best friends and teachers engouraged me with the same.

After completing my matriculation with a appreciable score I was very much eager to have my senior secondary studies taking maths and computer science as the core subject. It was not because I loved some proffessions related to those subjects but it was ue to my eager to know the subjects in deep.

But after the first month of my study I realised that computer science was not a subject that could do something with me. I somehow managed to pass the subject in my senior secondary studies. Though Iwas labelled as one of the studious pupils in my school the truth was that i reallybelonged to the laziest beings in that school. It is only due to my moms compulsion I went the coaching for engineerng entrance examnations. Though the coaching classes was really a fun time with friends ( winking)..But the classes were utter boring not because the tecahers not taking the classes well. The only reason was my lack of interest.